Let Love Lead

The words just don't flow right now. I can't seem to pick one thought. My mind is racing faster than I can keep up with it. What are the things to say to make it all matter?

I question if I question the reader to hook them in. I wonder if anyone wants to hear about how I've struggled the last few days. I wonder if I should share a story about how Wolfgang put a whole carton of ice cream in the microwave.

Do I make a funny joke?

Do I share more of the Gospel?

Do I let them into the inner workings of my mind?

Am I doing the right things to glorify God?

I wonder if the woman that I handed a Manna Mama sticker to the other day in the store thought I was off my rocker or touched by the call for me to talk to her.

I wonder what God is asking me to do in this moment as I essentially word vomit through my keyboard onto the blog (wonderful imagery, I know).

I could let myself go down every one of the 2,569 rabbit holes that consume my thoughts.

OR, I could pause, breathe, pray, and sit. I could let God speak to me in the silence as I open my heart to his direction and to his love. I want him to guide my words. I want to be the person that he believes I am to carry out the work he has called me to do.

I am a vessel. We all are. God created each of us for a purpose, for his plan and for his glory. Whether that's in being a parent, a spouse, a friend, a grocery cashier, a gas attendant, a teacher, a nurse, a pastor, a gardener, a coach, a mechanic, a relator, anything. God calls to us to bring him into our lives to take root in our hearts. He desires to work in us and through us, to follow his ways for the building of his kingdom.

We could venture down every rabbit hole. We could ponder all of the what-ifs. We could choose instead to believe in a crystal ball to see our future or those old Magic 8 balls we all thought had the answers to life (I never did marry my 8th grade crush like it said I would).

Instead, why not choose to believe in the one true loving God that has it all figured out and walks alongside us in every moment, good and bad, easy and hard, happy and sad. Let us rest in knowing that his plan is at work and that he has us covered in his grace and his mercy in all the things that we do.

We are imperfect people. We were made to be a perfect creation but sin entered into the world and we have been struggling ever since. But the great news is, we don't have to wonder about what comes next. He has it all in his hands.

By simply saying "Yes" to the Lord, you are letting the most perfect love into your most imperfect heart. He will lead us, guide us, love us, protect us, discipline us, and bring us resurrection because he doesn't wonder about what comes next. He knows that here and now, he loves you and wants to bring you back home to him as his child, to cover you in all of his goodness.

So maybe that is why I chose to not focus on all of the wonderings that I have and to just let my fingers float over the keyboard, letting his words fill this page with the message that he wanted to be shared. And you know what? I trust God wholeheartedly and know that this message will reach someone at the right time as God is working in them.

Because that is the beauty in which our good God works.

Isaiah 55:8-9

 8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

neither are your ways my ways, declares

the Lord.

9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth,

so are my ways higher than your ways

and my thoughts than your thoughts." ESV